For the last few months I have felt God prompting me to write. I am not a writer. I am a lawyer and worse than just a lawyer I am a litigator and so I am used to arguing for a living and engaging in conflict to try to find a resolution but a writer no. However as I have reached a crossroads in my life I keep asking God what the next chapter will be, what plans he has for me, what he is calling me to and each time I just keep sensing I need to start writing and that that writing will be part of the answer.
There feels a real vulnerability in putting your thoughts, weaknesses, failures, hopes and dreams out there but at this stage when I have no idea where God is taking me and what the future is going to look like I know I have to be obedient and write even if only for my own benefit.
I think part of what I have to write about is my story over the last 10 years and the lessons life/God has taught me and continues to teach me, the heartbreak, the pain, the battles but also the joys, the amazing blessings and the beautiful people I have been given to do this life with.
10 years ago I was engaged to be married to a boy that on paper was not someone I ever expected to end up with – a boy that liked to party, a boy that came from a very different background, a boy that had never stepped foot in a church but a boy who was everything I needed, who made me laugh and loved me totally.
10 years on life is not were I expected it to be – I have buried 3 out of my 4 closest male family members, have had a baby, lived through the hideous journey that is cancer, dealt with tax bills/foreign property/my mother whilst trying to be a good mum, daughter, sister, friend and hold down a job which has more of its fair share of stressful moments. I have sworn, screamed, battled God to the extremes and without a doubt I have driven those closest to me to the edge but in the midst of it all I have learnt so much about life, about people, about myself and above all about God.
I remember listening to a lady at a conference, a few years ago, whose husband was piloting the first plane to hit the twin towers and her overwhelming message was of beauty from the ashes and I can truly, hand on heart, say that there is really beauty to come out of the ashes and that I have been blessed beyond measure.
So as I start this writing journey if you fancy popping by and joining me you are very welcome x
beckyforder 
This is such a wonderful idea Becs. I know your story and journey will touch so many people and that God brings much revation and healing to us by sharing our stories and testimonies. I have always believed that our stories are not our stories to keep but God’s stories to share, so others can be encouraged, built up, challenged and grow from what God has done in our lives – knowing He is faithful and He will never leave us nor forsake us.
I’m proud of you for stepping out in faith. I know God will bless you abundantly through this time, as you continue to seek Him first – all things will be added to you.
May the Lord bless you and protect you. May He make His face to shine on you and be gracious to you. May He show you His favour and give you His peace x
With love from Cape Town x
So excited about this bec and cannot wait to see what God does through it. Love you. Proud of you xx
You are an amazing woman, Bec, and we can’t wait for more from you. There’s comfort in knowing that God is begin enough to handle it when we scream at Him in frustration, or fear, or anger.
I love hearing what God is doing in your life and saying to you. You have a lot to write and I find you very inspiring. Thankyou for letting me share in your journey! Looking forward to the next updates.
Hi Becky,
Having read your blog I can confirm you ARE most definitely a writer. I write a blog too and find it extremely cathartic. My advice is to keep writing from your heart, you will bless many people and your story and experience will bring positive change and hope to others.